Last week, a young woman knocked at Window Studio’s door. As I went to answer it, she straightened up, grasped the folder she was holding a bit tighter, and took a deep breath as though gathering up her courage. I opened the door and she asked breathlessly what I was doing. I said I was painting people’s portraits.

“Oh, it’s so beautiful! May I come in?” She came in and quickly took a seat on the bench along the window. She looked all around the room, without taking off her red mirrored dayglo sunglasses.

“Wow, is this all your art?” she asked. She seemed to be looking at the party decorations that DL has left set up in the space as advertising – lavender chiffon curtains draped along the walls, pompoms of tissue hanging from the ceiling and vases of artificial flowers – as much as my paintings.

I explained that the paintings were my art, but that the space was also used for parties.

“Oh, that’s so wonderful. I’m an artist too you know!”

I sat down next to her. “That’s cool. What kind of art do you do?”

“All kinds. Drawing mostly. Painting…no, not really painting. I don’t have the music to do that kind of art, you know what I mean?”

I said I did, but wasn’t so sure. She pushed the sunglasses up on her head and kept looking wide-eyed around the room.

“It’s so beautiful! So beautiful in here!” She leaned forward eagerly. “And it’s so beautiful that you see them too!”

“I do?”

“Of course you do, you can see my honeys too!”

“Really? What do they look like?”

“Nilly and Silly, that’s the name of my honeys, I mean my nieces, aren’t they adorable?”

She put the glasses back on. Her hair was tied up in a knot, its caramel-colored waves rippling over the top of her head, glowing like haze in the sunlight. She straightened her cotton dress over her knees, brought her feet together and adjusted the folder in her lap, as though prepared to stay for awhile.

“I love color,” she said.

“I can see that, you have beautiful colors on.”

She straightened the rows of beaded bracelets and plastic charms on her wrists. “I do, don’t I…”

“Maybe you can come and pose for a portrait sometime. I need a new model soon, I’m almost finished this one.” I pointed to the picture of E. in her fur coat that I was working on.

“Really? I don’t know…”

“Sure, why not? I would love to paint you. What’s your name?”

“My name is Secret,” she said.

Suddenly she jumped up. “Oh and here I am keeping you, and you are with your tools and everything!”

She went to the door, opened it and hesitated.

“Come back sometime Secret, and I’ll paint your portrait.”

“I will!”

She skipped off in her flowered Converse sneakers, her thin cotton dress whipped against her legs in the sharp April breeze.

When I set the studio up in the window, I had hoped that people would look in and be interested, but I would never have believed how important a part of the project these interactions would become. I’m surprised at how many people stop in to talk to me, to ask how much it would cost to have a portrait painted, or to just tell me they like the picture I am working on. Whether or not people actually end up commissioning a painting, there is something intrinsically valuable in conceptualizing it. Just saying “I would like a portrait of myself (or my kids, my brother, my mother who has passed away)” seems to enhance one’s sense of self worth.  So many interactions have accumulated, these are just from one day:

•  J. was walking by and stopped to look more closely at the Portrait of W which is finished now. J. said he felt like he knew the guy (maybe he actually knows W., but I think he meant just from the picture). He told me he really appreciated the picture, that it was beautiful, and that he would like to get a portrait of his three kids. He said he would bring them by after school.
• Another man named K. came in saying, “You’re just the person I need to see! I have an urgent request!” I told him it was not often that someone urgently needed a painting, but I’d see what I could do. He said that he wanted one of himself, his son, his brother and his nephew, who was a Marine and stationed down South, and would have to be included from a photograph since he wasn’t able to get leave. He wanted to give the picture to his mother for Mother’s Day (more on men wanting pictures for or of their mothers in another post!). K. thought he could pay $500 for such a painting. He is also not the only person who has wanted a painting to include family members that are far away.
• Then, a religious Jewish man with the long coat, yarmukle, and sidecurls – also chewing gum – wanted to know if I might have any paintings for the building he is renovating on the next block. I said I mostly did portraits but then showed him one of the Russian Reflections, which he really liked. I priced it high because I didn’t really want to sell it. And then he said his son, who was nine years old was very talented at art, and maybe I could show him a few things about painting? “Bring him in!” I said.
• Two of the construction workers from next door, a short Hispanic man and a tall Sikh, peered in the window and gave a thumbs up to the portrait of E. in the fur coat that I was working on.
• And finally D., who has become quite a regular, came in. He used to call me “white artist lady” though now that DL told him that wasn’t nice (“She has a name you know!”” Well what is her name then?”) now makes a point of calling me Anne. Anyway, D. veers from being decent to me and intrigued by the portraits to having to emphasize racial differences. (“So you like painting black people!” “I like painting all people.”) Today, D. said he liked the difference between the Portrait of W. with W. being a part of all the life of the street going on, while in the portrait of E. in the fur coat she looked calm and removed from the bustle of the world.
• As I was closing the gate, a bit disappointed that J. hadn’t come back with his kids, who should I see out front but J. He apologized for having forgotten, and took me next door to the barber shop to meet the kids – now I don’t know if he has 3 or 4 – there were 4 in the barber shop. The oldest girl was maybe 14, and looked very dubious about her father’s idea to have this lady paint a portrait of them. The three boys who were 8, 9, and 10 or so, hopped up and down peering at me with the biggest eyes!
• And the other guys in the barber shop were happy that K. had found me, and wanted me to know that  they had told K. to come see me, that I would be the one who could paint the portrait he needed urgently for his Mother!

One of these past cold days when it was spitting snow despite being springtime, there was a different lock on the storefront gate and I couldn’t get in. It was too cold to stand out on the street to wait for DL to get there, so I went into the barber shop next door.

Incredulous stares (Doesn’t this lady realize that this is the barber shop?!)

“I’m the artist who works in the space next door… (a couple guys nodded).

“I’m locked out.” (silence)

“Would you mind if I sat here and waited for DL to come open up? You know her…” (a few more nods)

“She’s not always, shall we say, on time.” (Lots of nods. laughs)

I was gestured to sit in the chair by the window, which I did, happy as could be! I’d been dying to visit the barber shop, but knew that it was sacred territory, off limits to strangers, particularly women strangers, and especially white women strangers.  But eventually people just ignored me, after perhaps an interrogating look when they first came in and before they proceeded to the back where the real action takes place.Though I was surprised that some people did actually come in to get haircuts.

So I did some sketching for the hour that it took DL to get there, though it was hard with no one sitting still. The two little kids that I’ve seen looking out the front door when I had passed before were curious about what I was doing, so I showed them the rudimentary sketch I’d done of them. Their eyes were huge, and they looked at what I was doing so closely that their heads were right over my little sketchbook. The little boy looked like he was four, though when I asked how old he was, he said in a whisper that he was two. I gave him my pen and said he could draw. He very seriously added the line for the arm in the sketch I’d done of him. And I drew a pair of big eyes with lashes for his little sister.

Then P., who I have spoken to before when getting coffee at the corner store, came in. We spoke for awhile before he had to cut someone’s hair. He said it had been a long time since he’d drawn, maybe not since when he went to Art & Design High School. “That was back when “graffiti” was in, so that is mostly what I did. Maybe I didn’t spend my time as wisely as I could have, if you know what I mean! It’s too bad, but some people still haven’t moved on from that.”

In addition to giving haircuts, P. also is a photographer. We agreed it was hard, whether in a painting or a photo, to really get a portrait to capture more than just what the person looked like. It takes time to get to know who the person is, time to really see what’s important in them. He does wedding photographs, and thought maybe some of the couples he photographs would like to spend some time together posing for a painting. A deluxe package!

When W. and I were working on his first portrait, I asked him why he had chosen to wear the warrior beads for his portrait. He said because he was from Sierra Leone and had come to the US as a young teenager after living for a year as a child soldier in the African bush. I asked him whether we could include something that suggested this experience in a second portrait that would use the reflections in the window of Anthony’s, the store across the street. He was really into this idea, and I am still working on the painting.

When Window Studio started, I shared the space with Fredricks & Mae, a pair making hand-made bocci balls and other decorative items. As part of my artistic practice, I like doing watercolors from direct observation to warm up, and I asked them if they would mind if I used them as models. W. was working with them and he liked the portrait idea so much that he agreed to be my first model. He decided to wear a set of African warrior beads that he had made while working with Fredricks & Mae.